Getting through, Folks! I’m better. I think. The test was very, very close to clean on Saturday. I’ll do one today. There was just a smidgen of a hint of a second line. My load is way down and almost ...
Read More →Dispatches
Covid.
The Covid, People. I got Covid, finally. I tested positive last Tuesday. I was feeling it Monday. I tested negative Monday morning. I felt worse throughout the day. I tested again on Tuesday and bam, ...
Read More →Bob.
Funerals, People. We’re all going to have one. I don’t think any of them will be as truly loving and sad as Bob Saget’s. So many people loved this guy. It was overwhelming. I have not been to an actual ...
Read More →Cat Party.
Cats, People. It was a rough week but I think we’re coming out of it. I’m not speaking about the world or the country because I’m not sure we’re coming out of whatever the fuck is unraveling at all ...
Read More →Another One.
Here comes another one, People. That’s my version of Happy New Year. Happy New Year sounds preemptively ironic under current conditions. I watched The Asphalt Jungle last night. Sterling Hayden as the ...
Read More →A Fairly Weak Delusion.
I’ve hit a wall, Friends. It’s always the way it goes with the food. I know how to eat. I know how to maintain good eating. I know it’s the holidays but, fuck. It’s like some kind of daily ...
Read More →An Abyss of Me.
Breaking down, Folks. I wake up feeling like I played rugby the day before. My joints hurt. I’m always sore. I work out too much. To what end? If it’s to feel better, I’m not sure that is what is ...
Read More →More Will Reveal Itself.
Driving, People! I was in New Mexico. I flew out there to see my dad and spend some time with him. He was waiting to get admitted to the hospital to have a procedure and it seemed like it was a ...
Read More →It's Not COVID.
Sicky, Folks. I have an old school cold. I haven’t been sick since before lockdown. Feeling nostalgic for regular cold and flu season when you didn’t have to get tested to make sure you didn’t have the ...
Read More →The Great Unbuttering.
Here we are, Folks. Alone with our flab. It’s been a long few days of eating and no purging. It is time to begin the great unbuttering. Is turkey even good? I don’t think it is. I never eat it. Once a ...
Read More →Turkey Day Cage Match.
Here it comes, People. Another Thanksgiving. How’s your hope holding up? I have none. I’m okay with it. I guess hope isn’t necessary to experience gratitude. It would seem almost the opposite would be a ...
Read More →Sugar and Meat.
Sugar and meat, People! I haven’t been to NYC since the before times. I didn’t know what to expect but it was great. I talk to my friend Lipsyte every day so I had a sense that things were opening up ...
Read More →Pumpkin Pie.
Right, Ladies? Right, Fellas? We all…I don’t know. I don’t know what any of you do. I don’t know your lives. I’m glad I can understand most people’s peccadilloes and weird habits but I don’t have to ...
Read More →Existential Rage.
The deep, Folks. Things come around. Bad things mostly. Sometimes good things. When I think about the idea of coming around it always relates to patterns. Cycles of behavior, feelings, a return back ...
Read More →We Need the Water.
Let it rain, People! I have never craved rain before living in Los Angeles. It gets to a point out here where I don’t even know how any vegetation is persisting. When I go on a hike, it all just ...
Read More →Purging.
Getting shit done, People! I mean, kinda. I’m purging my house. I’m trying to get rid of anything that brings me sadness or seems useless. I finally went through the cabinets with the remaining ...
Read More →Vessel Repair.
How are you, People? I’m in pain. Physical pain. Like, all the time. It’s my own fault. I have to choose between beating the shit out of myself mentally or beating the shit out of myself physically so I ...
Read More →Dark Frequencies.
Indiana, People! I’m back from Bloomington and home for a while. The material is coming along fine. I’m still riffing stuff out and need to lighten it up a bit. Shit is dark. I usually go to Bloomington ...
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