Jesus, let’s get on with it, People.
Anxious as fuck. The unknown has taken on new dimensions of unknownness and I’m fucking aggravated and anxious.
Shit, sorry. Happy New Year.
How was the transition for you? Dramatic? I rewatched ‘Ordinary People’ alone and cried a bit and was in bed reading and didn’t know the clock had turned until I heard fireworks outside. Even then, I didn’t register it much. I generally don’t.
I just know I’m anxious. I’m trying to read the tea leaves which is what I call my Citizens app. Last week there were two separate assaults by multiple people on one person. One of them involved bats. It’s a sad indicator of where we are at, economically and culturally, where all I can hope for is that in both cases they all knew each other and it was a business misunderstanding of some kind. As opposed to the fabric of society fraying to the point where the angry and desperate are randomly attacking people in groups.
I really don’t think there is a normal to return to and I think things are actually much worse than I even imagine out there for most people.
It’s hard to make decisions with so much up in the air. I can’t even begin to speculate about the future. Most of us don’t even know when or where we are going to get vaccinated. Who the fuck knows what’s going to happen this week as King Chaos Pig whips up an antidemocratic shit show for Gun Dorks, Hate Nerds and Bullshit Zealots as he closes out his presidency with the big grift finale? Or, civil war breaks out and it all crumbles into insanity and violence and he’s president for life. Hey, maybe both!
Or maybe reset. Reset with new management. Please. Democracy, work.
Let’s land this thing. Regroup. Find our bearings. Get things functioning for the most people possible again.
My brain is on fire. I’m doing the reading. I’m doing the thinking. I’m doing the writing. For what and for who I don’t know. I don’t know what I will be when and if we get through this. Or what it is I’m doing. I do know I don’t want to go back to the way it was. I know I don’t want this countrywide PTSD to erase what we are going through now in a haze of cortisol. I don’t want it to be a weird, dark dream. I do want us all to wake the fuck up though.
Today I talk to the Jewish Mandy Patankin. We do the Jew talk about all the big things aside from his actual career. On Thursday I talk to Thundercat about all the big things and a bit of bass. Great talks!
Enjoy!
Boomer, Monkey and LaFonda live!
Love,
Maron