No football for me, People.
I didn’t watch the Super Bowl. Not because I have anything against it. I’m just totally not interested in any of it. It’s not even on my radar. Right now all I know about the Super Bowl is that Taylor Swift is dating a guy on one of the teams and that seems to upset a certain type of person. I’m all for that.
It was not enough to get me to watch the game.
To be honest I don’t think I’ve ever watched a Super Bowl.
I’ve talked about it before, but sports are just not something I have ever connected with. I know it's more of a social event but I’m starting to realize that the few friends I have in the world, the ones in LA, are not really into them either. Or they just didn’t invite me to the party. I couldn’t have gone anyway. I had two interviews yesterday.
I get the social event. I’m sure many of you spent time making interesting snacks that you learned about on IG. Dips and whatnot. I’m sure many of you drank too much. I’m sure many of you didn’t even really pay attention to the game. I understand all that. I’m sure it was fun. Maybe I’m jealous but I don’t think so.
I wouldn’t be a good Super Bowl party guest.
I think I did develop some judgement of the event around the time that the Super Bowl commercial became something culturally exciting. It was also a coveted gig in show business if you could land one.
So, along with football, which I’m not interested in, it’s a celebration of commercials. Which is weird and off-putting. I mean I’ve liked a few commercials in my life but I never looked forward to them.
I wish I liked sports. It would have given me a healthier sense of self if I knew how to win and lose without it feeling like an ego death or a life-diminishing proposition. So now I’m just left with the petty competitiveness of life through jealousy and feeling left out. It’s harder to win at those sports because it’s an internal game with no victors and the rules are unclear. It’s a waste of time and there are no prizes other than learning how to rise above the game and act like a fucking adult. Maybe if I loved sports I could’ve displaced some of that.
I did win today though. Just saying.
Today I find out if I need surgery on my foot. I have done all that I was supposed to do. Slept in the boot, showered with it on, dealt with the smell. The doc said the break was in a difficult place and the tendons may keep pulling the bone apart. I’m nervous because I don’t know what surgery would mean and how that would affect my life in terms of recovery. The doc said I have a 65 percent shot at healing without surgery.
I hope I win this one. I hope I’m in that 65 percent.
Today I talk to Ed Zwick about his life directing and producing movies. On Thursday I talk to Da’Vine Joy Randolph about her interesting journey to being nominated for an Oscar. Great talks.
Enjoy!
Boomer, Monkey and LaFonda live!
Love,
Maron
