Welcome back, People.
That’s a reset. Old school radio stuff. Not hard to learn and totally unnecessary in podcasting. Just saying.
I think I need a reset and today might be the day. As I sit here writing this on Sunday, I am fasting and just waiting around to go to the bathroom. I have a colonoscopy tomorrow which is today if you are reading this on Monday. It’s probably happening right now. You’re welcome for the image.
The day before is the worst. Just drinking stuff to give yourself massive diarrhea. Waiting. The only benefit of intentional runs is you know it’s coming and you know why.
Knowing it’s coming is something you want with your health. I think. Maybe not everyone but I do. I guess. That’s why I’m going in for a routine test. I want to know what’s up. Because you don’t want to die just because you didn’t want to get your routine tests or you just don’t get them because you’re scared or an idiot. We’ll see if everything is okay. I’ll get to see an exciting video voyage through my colon. If I’m lucky it will be clean and pristine.
Sorry if this is too graphic.
Knowing it’s coming. It’s a theme I think about because I need to change up my food routine. It has gotten away from me. I already have a bit of heart disease. I’m already on a statin. I just have been consuming so much meat and sugar lately. It's totally stupid and I know I’m doing it. There’s something about being an addict of any kind that makes your reward system totally destructive. Some part of my mind believes I deserve all the steak and cake. Because I like it. Food is fun and I want to eat whatever the fuck I want. That’s one side of it. The other side of is much simpler. ‘Fuck it. I’m going to die of something. Why not this?’
Meat-and-sugar-brain is powerful.
I’m thinking that today my colon is clean. I don’t know if there’s something wrong with it yet but I know it's empty. I’m thinking I should start fresh and just put good things in there. Plant things. Maybe I’ll vegan it for a while to see if I feel better. I never feel great. I think it may be my diet. Maybe I’ll try to change it. It doesn’t feel like it will happen if I keep saying maybe.
We’ll see.
Today I talk to Sarah Polley about her amazing film Women Talking and sexual assault and her life. Thursday, I talk to Brendan Fraser about The Whale and sexual assault and his life. These are great conversations, heavy.
Enjoy!
Boomer, Monkey and LaFonda live!
Love,
Maron
A Routine Test.
